Why did I let it all begin

Why did I let it all begin -
why did I fall in love?
I fell in love with life and now
I wish that I were dead.

I once saw a child - a boy -
who tried a man to grow;
but when a man he had become
his mind was still a child’s.

Oh, that I could hear again
the sounds I used to know!
There’s only one more sound to hear -
one only - then the end.

What can I hope to find on Earth
that’s not already mine?
And what would be my gain if I
should conquer all the world?

I saw a light but heard no sound
when they lit the match;
I saw a light and turned to go -
but everyone was dead.